Tonight I was walking with a firiend and talking about recovery. Does she really need a 12 Step program or could she do it on her own?

I said that the question is really about whether or not I can surrender to the program. I"heard that all the Steps are is a process for overcoming my ego's objection to giving up control. Surrender to win!!!

But I don't want to surrender.

The reality is, though, that I am always surrendered to something, whether it's my food plan or Kay's, the 12 Steps or my own "principles", love or fear. I make my choice and then surrender myself to the process. I didn't really understand that until just this moment.

So if I can't stay on a food plan by myself, I need a process that will help me reduce my ego to the point that I can continue to surrender to a food plan that doesn't include addictive substances. I'm appreciate that plan in my life today with the 12 Steps.

Something or somebody is always in charge. Am i under the care of my higher power or the care of my disease??

Love,
Kasey

Wong Number, Sorry. Donna, I'm sorry I gave you the wrong number and I hope your reading this. My number is 440/437-2112. Please call.

Thank you, Kasey, for this post. It is right on the mark for me and a great perspective on the choice I make each day.

Love,
Kelly