I met a wonderful person on Facebook, but I am scared to ask her to help me. I have been binge eating for decades. I have a history of severe mental illness, and food seems to have been my way of getting through all the difficulties.
And yet. And yet.
I am looking for a recovery friend. Perhaps one who understands mental illness also. I need to get a start with Kay's plan.
Right now I have a lot of food in my kitchen to binge on. I am scared.
I would like to begin a conversation with anyone who might wish to help. I prefer email.
I get overwhelmed easily, and yet -- I still have hope.
Thanks from my grateful heart,
Leslie

Hi Leslie,
Thanks for reaching out. I want to support you in contacting your Facebook friend to ask for help. This is the most important task that I do. And one of the most difficult since it involves being vulnerable and admitting that I need help. It is entirely necessary for me, though.
Life has been a very different experience since I became abstinent. As time passes, I can see more clearly how ineffective my coping skills were and how my life has been improved by using the tools of the program. The two things I am noticing most lately is that I spend little time beating up on myself and I am willing to risk failure to develop some latent talents. Of course, not obsessing about food during every waking moment is a big bonus, too!!

I hope that you will continue to reach out at a level that is comfortable for you. Feel free to contact me by phone or email.
kkollatl@yahoo.com
678-923-9452

What city are you in? Maybe there is a face to face meeting where you are or some other food addicts that you could connect with. There are a lot of us out there.

Love,
Kasey

Hi Leslie,
I understand where you are coming from on both subjects. I will be honest, I haven't been to a meeting in years, but I know this program works. Because I did work it for 4 years and it did amazing things for me mentally, and spiritually. I have been searching for this web site for sometime, and am grateful to have found it. If you would like to talk feel free to shoot me an email.

Desperate for Abstinence
Donna

Dear Donna,

Your kindness in writing to me is palpable. I am in a really bad "space" right now -- very manic, almost suicidal, and right now -- I KNOW I HAVE CHOICE -- but I feel as if I am on the verge of collapse.

Am in that place where I just have to hunker down the hatches, as it were.

Hopefully I will summon the courage to come back to this site, to your reply, and answer more fully. Right now, that does not seem possible.

I am 'okay', and hope you are too.

Leslie in Baltimore